Rianna

Introduction "And should Ye seek happiness in Me, know that You shall never find Me, until you find happiness in Yourself." xxxxxShe has always been a special girl. More so than being the daughter of a werewolf and a well-practiced witch. For her, the magic has always come from within, from the depths of her mind. Had life been fair, she could have explored all these parts of herself with her Garou father and sorceress mother together. But Fate is as cruel as the Wyrm, sometimes. Orphaned by Black Spiral Dancers when she was six years old, she grew up under the care of her grandfather. Kinfolk himself, he taught her what stories and legends he could before he too went the way all mortals must, in time. Passing from foster home to foster home, she honed her special gifts in secret, knowing that they, even more than her Garou heritage, was what set her apart from others. But now, childhood is over, and it is time for her to stand on her own. She has come here, to study, to learn. To finally find the answers to all the questions that have hounded her all her days. [ edit ] Stereotypes I wish it was just Twilight. I'd take Team Edward over what's really out there any day of the week. These monsters need to die. You guys had your chance. All I wanted was to help. But you didn't want that from me. All you wanted was a servant. Someone to bow and scrape and say 'thank-you-sir-may-I-have-another'. Well. Get used to disappointment. I am so done with you jackholes. Mom? Dad? Are you guys still out there? Can you hear me? I can't do this by myself. I don't know who I can trust, and you're the only people who ever loved me. Help me, please. I'm so scared. Angels. Demons. Whatever. I'm interested in 'monster' or 'not monster'. If you're not a monster? Then cool. We can jam together. If you are? Then your ass is so going back to Hell. I've only barely glimpsed who they are. I want to see more, but... if they really are dreams, then they have to fade like dreams. I couldn't do that to them. Where do I go from here? How far do I have to go to reach infinity? My Mother and my Goddess are out there. They're a part of me. So why do they feel so distant these days? Everyone matters. Every life is precious. Until they choose to become monsters. I have to spare those I can from the pain I've seen. Save them from the evil I've witnessed. Because they can't. They don't know how. And if I don't, then what hope is left? I respect their discipline. And they can do all the wicked-cool shit out of the Matrix. But all the peaceful thoughts and breathing in the world isn't going to stop the monsters. Sometimes, you have to stop consecrating your navel and fight. I can get down with the whole One Divinity thing. What I can't get down with is passing judgement because my Goddess isn't their One Divinity. Gaia is love, not hate. I can jam with these guys. I'm not down with all the drugs and shit, and I really think there's more to life than getting laid. But I'm okay with the idea of life being more than the Grim Struggle. They have a lot to offer us. They're closer to Gaia and Her Velvet Shadow than any of the rest of us. If only they saw my family for the jackholes they really are, they'd be actually pretty all right to hang with. I understand why they do what they do. I really do. They make sure things die when they need to. Not when we might want or hope for them to. I can dig that. Get the fuck over yourself. You guys can go on about being the 'First Tradition' all you want. You all totally stole your best ideas from us. My cave paintings and menhirs versus your grimoires and towers--let's go, Merlin. I can dig these dudes, as long as they lay off the patriarchy vibe. If anyone can see that science and magick can coexist, it's them. Besides, steampunk is cool. Across a thousand nations and forty thousand years. The teachers and the healers, we are the Craft of the Wise. The roots of our tree are deeper than any Tradition, our power the Will of our Goddess. Our magick lives and breathes. It is timeless. It is eternal. It is everything. They got some cool-ass toys. I won't deny that. But the world is more than a computer program. It's not something you can change just by wanting to. You have to love the world, because the world is alive. It isn't data. It's more than that. Tragedy I get. Despair, darkness. Misery, desperation, and death. I get it. I get where they're coming from. What I don't get is why they'd rather wallow in it than try to rise above it and become more. Things are only bad now. They can be better. If we want them to be. This world is ours. We can do anything. Why can't the rest of the Nation understand? Why can't they be more like you? They don't fight for Gaia because they love Her, but because they hate the Wyrm. You can't save anything with hate. Why won't you make them understand? Nobody understands the power of Woman like I do. Nobody. But what you're doing? This is not how a loving Mother behaves. Hate will not save Gaia. Only love can do that. Tell me again exactly how exterminating the human race is going to bring the wolves back? How is that going to make anything better? How is that not the exact same fucking thing the Wyrm is trying to do? Yeah. That's what I thought. At least you guys aren't all about killing people and toppling the cities. I'm okay with that. But seriously, you guys don't have to be such dicks all the time, do you? You guys can go on and on all day long about how honorable and glorious you are. I'm not buying it. There's nothing glorious or honorable about war. You want to really impress me? Show me you can wage peace in our Mother's name. 'til you can do that, I have no use for you. Abashed, the devil stood and saw how awful goodness is. Run, monsters. I am coming for you. [ edit ] Contacts George Eloise There's much more to you than appearances suggest. How do you know the things you know? "Let's take a ride." Now I understand. Teach me. I'm ready. "Incantate this magic spell." Jake Teagen You were the first one. And I'll always remember you fondly. But it just wasn't enough. In the end, you don't love me. I can finally accept that. "All the broken hearts in the world still beat." I just knew there had to be others! I'm so happy I met you! Let's rock, girlfriend! "We really can't be beat." Leila Cross I want to be jealous of you. But you inspire me so much. You deserve him, and so much more. "Love is watching someone die." You make me feel like I can have hope again. If only you knew how much that meant. "You'll never know just what you mean to me." Selene BryanO You're no better than the rest. No better than anyone else. Get over yourself. "So you can point that fucking finger up your ass." I'd be lost without you here. I feel so much better, knowing I can rely on you to help me through. Thank you, so much, for everything. "You know you can follow my voice." Harry Lars Do you know just how amazing you are to me? How much I love you? Don't ever leave my side, my sweet giant. "I love you, always, forever." I've finally realized just how fine the line between honorable strength and vicious cruelty really is. What you've done is shameful. "I won't become the thing I hate." Mnemosyne Ernst We got off on the wrong foot. That was my bad. I'm glad we were able to reconcile. Us Kinfolk gotta stick together, amirite? "Just call my name, and I'll be there." Now that I've seen you as you truly are, I realize just why it is you fascinate me so. My loving hero, my wonderful giant. If you ever have need of my power, it's yours for the asking. "Kiss me beneath the milky twilight." Sara McMurrough Trekome You don't have to accept that kind of abuse from them. There are more of us than there are of them. And Gaia loves us all. Someday, we'll make them see that. "Rise above, we're gonna rise above." I was wrong. I don't want to be anything like you. You don't understand, and you never will. And I don't owe you anything. Find someone else to do your dirty work. "I do not need you anymore, you cannot hurt me anymore." Juliette Leandro You are wrong. About everything. If only the Wyld survives, then Gaia dies with everything else. And it will be you who murdered Her. "Yeah, she's a blood suckin' freak." I think that everyone who warned me about you might just be right. And you know what? I don't care. You're cool to hang with. "Her heart's gently pounding." Phil Bjorn Sometimes I think you try too hard. Other times I think you don't try hard enough. But stop trying to make me a misfit. It's not gonna work. "Forfeit the game before somebody else takes you out of the frame." If only I'd met you before I met them. You're everything they were supposed to be. We could do so much good together. I hope you'll give me the chance. "I've been waiting for you." Velok You thought to sit in judgment over me? While you were literally in bed with our enemy? How. Dare. You. Stay the fuck away from me, traitor. "I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you." [ edit ] Gallery [ edit ] Soundtrack Indigo Girls - Prince of Darkness The cries of passion were like wounds that needed healing I couldn't hear them for the thunder I was half the naked distance between Hell and Heaven's ceiling And it almost pulled me under Hayley Westenra - The Mummers Dance Who will go down to the shady groves And summon the shadows there? And tie a ribbon on those sheltering arms In the springtime of the year? The Crüxshadows - Winterborn And in this moment, I will not run It is my place to stand We few shall carry hope within our bloodied hands And in this moment, I am for you Though better men have failed I will give my life for love For I am winterborn Muse - Map of the Problematique Life will flash before my eyes So scattered and lost I want to touch the other side And no one thinks they are to blame Why can't we see That when we bleed, we bleed the same? Dido - White Flag But I will go down with this ship I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be Veruca Salt - Wolf When you fell, waters were dancing me In a dark place, I close my eyes To see your determined face My secret inside me I slept in hell This is a time for believing in fairy tales One in which you are brought back to me I cried wolf Mushroomhead - Solitaire Unravelling Locked away in my cage My rage has got the best of me Time finds a way each day Of leaving less of me behind I find this fight must be won inside my mind So uptight and confined Often blinded by the light Taking its toll on my system Marilyn Manson - Coma White There's something cold and blank behind her smile She's standing on an overpass in the Miracle Mile 'Cause you were from a perfect world A world that threw me away today To run away Tarja Turunen - I Walk Alone You don't have to see What I turned out to be No one can help you I walk alone Every step I take I walk alone My winter storm Holding me awake, it's never gone When I walk alone   Coldplay - Paradise Life goes on, it gets so heavy The wheel breaks the butterfly Every tear a waterfall In the night, the stormy night, she'll close her eyes In the night, the stormy night, away she'd fly And dream of paradise Inkkubus Sukkubus - Queen of the May Let the trees be green again And let us all be free from pain Out of the ice and into the flame The Season of the Goddess returns Hail hail, the Queen of the May The Tea Party - Sister Awake I am the Sun in the Flame Cold from the flames turns away And in these winds came a change She Awakes Where The River Goes - Stone Temple Pilots I wanna be as big as a mountain I wanna fly as high as the sun I wanna know what the rent's like in Heaven I wanna know where the river goes Sarah McLachlan - In Your Shoes You hold your head above the waves Above the war they try to wage You are stronger than their hate Time for you to walk out And walk in your own shoes Lay down your footprints wherever you choose Leave it all behind and move on You are your own woman nine inch nails - every day is exactly the same i believe i can see the future 'cause i repeat the same routine i think i used to have a purpose but then again, that might have been a dream i think i used to have a voice now i never make a sound i just do what i've been told i really don't want them to come around oh no Evanescence - Going Under Now I will tell you what I've done for you Fifty thousand tears I've cried Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you And you still won't hear me Going under Mudvayne - Dig Dig Bury me Underneath Everything that I was Slowly changing   Tales of Phantasia - Mystic Forest Enya - The Memory of Trees Chrono Trigger - Memories of Green Lindsey Stirling - Crystallize Love Spirals Downwards - Sidhe Dead Can Dance - Host of Seraphim nine inch nails - help me i am in hell [ edit ]

Rianna [ edit ] Overview Full Name: Rianna Rebecca Silver Species: Child of Gaia Kinfolk Sex: Female Race: Mage Tradition: Verbena Nationalities: USA Age: 19 Apparent age: Late Teens Occupation: Pre-med Student Concept: Monster Hunter Nature: Caregiver Demeanor: Waif [ edit ] RP Hooks Pagan: Rianna is a practicing Wiccan, melding her imperfect understanding of the Garou concept of Gaia with an eclectic sprinkling of New Age and pagan practices. Student: Rianna is attending university with a major in pre-med. Musician: She plays guitar and sings, when she can be coaxed out of her shell. Mage: Rianna has just Awakened to the Verbena Tradition. She has much to learn, but she is ready to take her place in the Craft of the Wise. [ edit ] Notable Stats Strength Dexterity Stamina Appearance Charisma Perception Alertness Awareness Empathy Intuition Meditation Melee Willpower Arete Correspondence Life Mind Prime Spirit Time Avatar Pure Breed Iron Will Kinfolk Lifesaver [ edit ] Tropes Parental Abandonment - The loss of her parents--and witnessing their brutal murder--has left deep scars on her. She struggles daily to free herself from the memory of that awful night. Hunting the monsters that stalk the World of Darkness might help her with this. Break The Cutie - This was done to her long ago, and the fragments remain razor sharp and painful. The magick was supposed to give her the answers. It was supposed to make everything better. But all she finds is more questions, and not enough answers. Dark Magical Girl - She is fast becoming one of these. Since coming out of her shell and seeing the truest face of the World of Darkness, she has lost much of the wide-eyed wonder and innocence she started with. And as her power grows, so too must her wisdom, and all the pain that it can bring her. Loners Are Freaks - One can only suffer so much betrayal before they stop trusting completely. For so long, she has been withdrawn into herself, seeking to become invisible so nobody could hurt her. Her experiences with the Garou have reminded her just why she did this in the first place. Who can she turn to now? Jerkass Façade - She tries so hard to put on a brave face, to show everyone that she isn't beaten. That she isn't weak. She's not a child, she's not helpless. But her youth constantly works against her, and all her bravado sends all the wrong messages. Despair Event Horizon - She is coming dangerously close to this line. Can she find her way back before she crosses it forever? After all she has seen, and all that has been done to her, does she dare hope again? [ edit ]