Eroica/Introduction

Sometimes life just happens, even when you least expect it. Leave it to me to be living a perfect life, balance, friends, fun and some hard work helping people... when everything takes a hard left. I have no idea what is going on, maybe I'm losing my mind, but it doesn't feel like that... It feels like I'm waking up. As though I've been sleeping in the movie theater, and now there are brighter lights, fuller sounds, so much more excitement around me.

But I've seen what happens to those that seek out help, telling doctors that they are seeing things, hearing things. No matter how beautiful, how articulate, how well that conversation goes... the person is always shut away, labeled, left compartmentalized, minimized. A lesser citizen. I won't, can't, allow that to happen to me. Never will they shut me away. I would rather die.

Still... I hear the bells so clearly. Like wind chimes or Corinthian bells in a garden, sometimes accompanying the laughter of children. It always makes me smile... if just for a moment.