Raspberry Rain

I wake at night:

Freeze.

Blood sluggish. Slow.

Mist, gray pulled like a veil across the eyes

Spiderwebs tangle limbs.

Bound.

Can't breathe.

Pain, bubble trapt. Rising from the gut. Choking.

Sound is muffled, echoed screams reverberate.

Pressure waves against the eardrums.

Crack.

They are gone.

Blood of my body excised.

Forever bleeding.

Cold.

Remember the reason:

Duty, not a burden, but a weight

Carried on the shoulders as Atlas might.

Barbs pierce skin,

Spear words slide through muscle and tissue,

Analysis crush bone.

Broken husks unmade with observations,

Are remade stronger, devoid of insidious weakness,

Dark skies at Night sing sweet hymns to strength everlasting.

To a lack of weakness.

To a shield against possibilities negative.

Valor and love heavy,

Like the Earth across my shoulders.

What am I fighting for:

Walls spring up

Mushrooms popping through the forest floor

Rooms filled with voices

None speak the language I most wish to hear

Faces move behind a veil of Vaseline

Seen but distant, vague and blunted

Mine but not familial

Familiar in theory

A key no longer fitting her lock

Where has the tumor grown

In me or them?

Close my eyes,

Whispers of the dead sing me lullabies

All I want to do is sing along.

XoxO:

Hey baby

Shake baby

Your pollen is a callin'

All the bees for miles aroun'

They see how you glisten

Petals flexin' in the sun

They catch wind o' your scent

And your way they fly

But if you'd only see me

Baby, I'd be your humble bumble

The sweetest little bee

Sting.