Jaz - Journal

03.20.2023

I was feeling listless, unfocused. I know I need to learn, to grow, but without Jay, it's been hard to do anything but make videos and go over my many notebooks and wait for inspiration to come to me. I don't think I will be doing that any more, even if I don't take the offer given to me today. Her name is Lyra Grey. She is an impossibility that somehow exists. She is... I have never seen any human being so compelling. It isn't even sexual; it's a complete sense that whatever place she is in, it belongs wholly and completely to her. Including, it seems... me.