Wyatt slack journal

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August 27 - 2017

This morning my world changed. I know, everybody says that after tripping for the first time, but I'm serious. She came to me in the sunrise and I was reborn. I understand. I'm not sure how to process this but I know I'm changed. And I know what task She set for me. I just hope I have the strength to do it. It is amazing and terrible. I was weeping with happiness and terror at what She showed me. And at the feeling of Her grace bringing something out of me that never existed before. Me, but more. The best Wyatt that could be. I'm sad that isn't better, that there isn't more to me, to do Her work.

I still don't understand why She picked such a flawed vessel, but that's not up to me. My task, my purpose is clear.

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December 30 - 2017

Thank Gaia for Uncle Teddy. He had to put his foot down with the elders and tell them that I wasn't crazy and there was someplace I needed to be that wasn't home. We worked out a compromise I'm not happy with, but when the wisest of the elders speaks in Her name, it gets done. I feel weird being put out to stud. Not like I don't like either Laura or Diana, but it feels weird being a ...donor, this way. It wouldn't have been my choice on a lot of levels. But it continues the family line and buys me freedom to go do what I need to do.

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March 15 - 2018

Well, both of them are far enough along that the elders are letting me go, even if they don't really understand why. How do I even talk about this without sounding like I'm crazy. Or arrogant? I mean, it borders on being sacrilegious just to say that She spoke with me in my heart. But I am changed. The way the fights break up, the way I can feel the living breath of spirit move through me, the way I'm connected, able to do things I never could before, that's not imaginary.

Off to Prospect, California. I'd never heard of it before that morning. Now my life (and maybe death) with be there. Is it weird to be excited? I know that the end of days will be in my lifetime. And She wants me to show as many people as I can that they can live with nature, even in the city. To feed them. To show them how to feed themselves. And live in balance with Her, even in an urban wasteland. Because humans won't give up their cities, even when the worst happens. But maybe people can be taught how to live in those cities in ways that preserve the balance.

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March 28 - 2018

I made it here. It is strange settling into a whole new world. A new [Ed: A word is scribbled over here]. Meeting a lot of new people. It's more free here than back home but I miss seeing a reflection of my face, my voice, the way I walk and think and a wealth of shared experiences that I had back home. I'm kin, here, but it's more theoretical than visceral. I'm surprised by how much that hurts. I am itching to get started on The Work, but before I can do that, I have to find a job to keep body and soul together. I guess being enlightened and all doesn't mean I don't have to eat.

Interesting people here. Most of the men are too damned tall, though. Never thought of myself as short before, but damned if I've met anybody under six feet. And I met somebody who seems to see what I've become. That scares me a little, but it is what is is. She wouldn't have sent me here if I couldn't do Her will. Just may mean I have to work harder to get there.