2014.06.25: PWN - LEGACY - "Ayahuasca"
June 15th, 2014
I went to the Amazon to open my mind. I heard so many incredible stories about the miracle brew that could change a person’s entire outlook on life. It was something I needed to do. Some said it was like ten years of therapy in a single night. Others said it was the closest thing to a religious awakening they had ever experienced. I didn’t have any expectations going into it. My mind and body were completely open to wherever the ayahuasca wanted to take me. I could never try to explain the psychedelic trip I went on that night, but I can promise you that I came out of it a different man.
I just got back to Santa Barbara two days ago and I’m still reeling from my experience in the Amazon. Before I drank the brew, I was confused, unsure of myself, and totally unaware of my direction in life. All those feelings are gone. Not only did I see what I believe to be all the secrets of the universe, but now I know my specific purpose. I called a couple of my closest friends to meet me at our favorite spot on the beach so I could share photographs and try to explain my life changing experience. I think I’ve been on the beach since the moment I got back. Something feels right about being outside. I don’t want walls around me anymore, literally or figuratively.
This isn’t just talk. My eyes have been opened. I’d recommend an ayahuasca experience to anyone dealing with overwhelming grief or just looking to see beyond reality.
The last of my four friends finally arrives at our spot on the beach. I’ve got a blanket laid out and we’re all enjoying the gorgeous weather. I always get pissed at myself when I forget how beautiful California is. Not anymore. It’s moments like these that remind me just how incredible this place can be. Greg, the last of my friends to arrive, takes a seat on the blanket and I hand him a plate of fruit that we’ve all been snacking on. I grab my backpack and pull out a stack of photos that I pass around. Now that everyone is here, I can finally share my experience.
“Hey people. I'm glad you all could make it.” I smile at my friends, trying to make eye contact with each of them as I nod my head.
Greg takes a portion of the photographs and responds, “Welcome home, Kev. When did you get back?”
“A couple days ago. I'm still getting back into the swing of reality.” I almost chuckle as I say this. My friends can tell I’m beaming.
“How was it? Did it change your life?” Alicia asks with such sincere curiosity. She’s been my friend the longest. We had talked about my interest in trying ayahuasca for months before my trip and I know she wants to have an experience of her own someday.
“In so many ways...” I reply.
“That's awesome, man. I knew you were going to like it.” Greg says, while looking up from the pictures for a moment.
“That's actually why I asked you all here. I wanted to tell you all about my new path in life.” I try to calm some of the excitement in my voice as I speak.
“Okay...” Alicia responds. She gives me an unsure look, almost nervous about what I’m going to say next.
“I’m going start putting my kickboxing to use again. I’m going to start seriously competing.” I proclaim. There’s a newly found confidence in my voice that my friends don’t quite recognize yet.
Greg finishes flipping through his stack of pictures and looks up at me again, “What do you mean competing? You’re going to start doing tournaments again?”
“No, not tournaments. I want to start testing myself on a more regular basis and against a variety of different styles.” I reply.
“You’re not thinking of getting into MMA, are you?” Greg asks.
I laugh before responding, “No, not at my age. Truth is, I signed a contract to compete as a professional wrestler in a brand new promotion.”
“Really?” Alicia shakes her head and continues, “What would make you wanna do that?”
“I told you. Something spoke to me that night, after I drank the ayahuasca, and told me that I need to put myself out there and test my skills. I need to connect with people on a large scale and I need to show the world a new way to live.” The words sound even better out loud than they do in my head.
“I don’t follow, Kev. What do you mean a ‘new way to live?’” Greg asks.
“I’m talking about spreading a message through hard work, dedication, and love. There’s too much ugly shit in the world and I wanna try to reach people, show them it doesn’t have to be like that.” I respond, the confidence continues to grow in my voice.
Alicia passes me the stack of pictures and smiles, “If this is what you believe you should do, Kevin, then I think you should go for it.” She gives me a little wink. “I’ll support you no matter what…”
“Thanks.” I respond as I put the photos in my backpack and pull out four tickets to Legacy Wrestling’s inaugural show on the 20th. “Here, I picked up these tickets for you guys. I’m only making a brief appearance at the first show, but I still want you to come and check it out. You'll have to make a trip to Carson, but I think you’ll have a good time."
They grab the tickets from me and we continue to enjoy the beautiful weather on the beach. I can tell my friends aren't quite sure about all of this yet, but that's okay. I know I'll have to show a lot of people just how serious I am about this path. It'll come in time. Right now, I just want to enjoy the positive energy I'm getting from my friends. Besides, it’s only about twenty minutes until sunset and we have an incredible view. This is my favorite time to be here.
In this incredible world of instantaneous exchanges of information, it didn’t take wrestling fans very long to find out about the buzz that came off of Legacy Wrestling’s first show. Believe me, it’s all deserved. I had a brief appearance on the card and hung out backstage all night and I can honestly say, there was something in the air. There’s an incredible feeling of optimism and general excitement about this promotion. It’s not based on glitz and glamour. Pure potential. That’s what I see in this company. Things didn’t go perfectly on the first night, but it didn’t matter. We put on a spectacular show for everyone who was lucky enough to be there.
But it was only the start. I truly believe the best is yet to come.
I still don’t know what to make of Peter Bauer. He’s supposed to be ‘The Boss,’ but I watched him walk around the first show, acting more like the village idiot. I guess we didn’t get off to the best start, but I’m not going to stand around and watch him bully people. That’s the sort of behavior I’m trying to eliminate. There’s no reason to act like that. We’re all here to put our skills on display and provide a quality product to the public. I know he’s going to come after me and try to teach me some sort of lesson, but I’m not the one who has something to learn. Peter Bauer needs to open his mind. He needs to take a nice, long look at himself and realize that he’s going about it all wrong.
I know he thinks he’s punishing me by putting me up against Aiden Marx, but I don’t see it that way. I would have accepted any opponent he put in front of me. I know Aiden runs with a rough crowd, but everyone in Legacy is tough. That’s why we are here. I didn’t see a single face at our first show that didn’t belong. I’m not saying everyone has the strongest character, but they all have the skill. While that might make for some solid matches, skill will only get you so far. Not only does your body and training need to be sound, but your mind must also be on point. That’s where I thrive. I’m in the best shape of my life physically and mentally. My body is strong, but my mind even stronger. It’s going to take a lot to break me down. You’ll have to go to impossible lengths to see me falter.
Aiden isn’t going to break me. He may think he’s the smartest man in the business, but his actions prove otherwise. The ridiculous superiority complex that he shares with his group has been stuffed down the throats of professional wrestling fans for too long. Quite honestly, it’s overplayed. It’s time to evolve past the ego, Aiden. You’re peddling the same garbage that’s been present in this sport since day one. It’s nothing new and it’s certainly not interesting. Carrying around a worthless title? Trying to act like your empty threats are worth something? It’s all so stale. You call yourself a ‘Kingpin’ but then admit that you’re okay being Bauer’s henchman....
You need to take a second, Aiden, and focus your mind.
Put yourself to the test, for real. Don’t rely on your friends and cheat to find success. Find out what you’re really made of. I honestly think you have the ability to be successful in this business, but not on the path you’re currently traveling. Even if you do succeed, it’ll be as empty and worthless as that title you carry around. There are so many learning experiences in front of you, so much healthy competition in this company, you just have to open your eyes and see it. I don’t know if I’ll be the one to show you, Aiden, but I hope you find it someday. In the meantime, I’ll show you what a true warrior looks like. I’ll show you a man so at peace with himself and the world, that victory almost falls right into my lap.
If Aiden, the other members of W.A.S.T.E., and Peter Bauer don’t like it, they’ll have to figure out a way to deal with it. Because I’m here and I’m on a mission. Sooner or later, they’ll come to realize that the energy I bring isn’t going to be contained. I’ll get the fans behind me and together we’ll ride all the way to the top. My message isn’t complicated or disingenuous. I’m here to expose everything positive in the world and use it to my advantage. I expect my views to be ridiculed and that’s fine, because I’ve been shown the bigger picture. It’s going to be a lot of work, but nothing this important ever comes easy. I’m going to put in the time and make sure I keep my mind open, no matter what. That’s what brought me here to Legacy Wrestling. Something greater than all of us told me to sign the contract and start spreading a new message. That’s powerful stuff. I don’t take this responsibility lightly.
My name is Kevin Moss and I might be a simple guy from California, but I’ve got a secret to share. If you’re willing to learn and want to see everything the world has to offer, just keep your mind open, and I’ll show you some incredible things.
Open your mind
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